Saturday, February 22, 2003 :::
 
hello there people ... i bet you didn't expect me to be writing for another month huh? hahaha. well, i haven't been online because i've been too busy between school, work, and marinating in laziness in front of the couch. oh well ... let's see ... what have i been up to? ... um ... on the 15th i had lunch with kim, dianne, and marissa. it was pretty lame though. i mean, we just went and ate at macaroni grill... there wasn't a lot to talk about even though we haven't seen each other for a while. and at the end we all paid for ourselves. it was basically a lunch and it just so happened to be kim's birthday. argh, whatever. anyway ... la la la... i made a decision about friendship ... yeah. hahaha ... i know that might sound funny ... but hey, i didn't know how else to say it.

umm ... here ... let me lay the story out. it goes back to ... umm ... the beginning of september. when i was still working at premier fundraising. you see, i would work on tuesday, thursday, and friday ... that is ... when i would remember to wake up on time. but anyway, on one thursday i said, "hey tammi/staci are you busy after work on friday?" and they answered, "no we don't think so ..." and i said, "okay, wanna do something?" and they said, "sure ... we'll ask our mom." and that was that ... so ... la-dee-da-dee-da ... friday would roll around ... and when mrs. ishibashi would drop me off at home ... i expected tammi or staci to ask her if they could go out. but they'd just turn around and say, "see you monday jenni." ... umm ... okay ... whatever. anyway ... i was cool with that ... i can just go out with pammy or laura or marissa. but they never ask me out. i mean, you can't be friends with someone you never hang out with, right? that just doesn't make sense. you can have a sort of casual relationship ... but you can't be friends. i never ever see maris or laura any more. but they're my best friends. why? because when i do see them it's to hang out ... i don't feel like i have to make conversation with them ... it's so relaxed we don't really have to say much at all. but with tammi and staci it feels very forced ... okay ... maybe not with them both because i feel like i can talk to tammi for a while. but ... ARGH you know?! like today ... since i didn't say anything to her, staci said about three words to me in the car. and i do not want to sound mean [that's not the point of this blog] ... i just want them to understand ... i don't like how i feel about our friendship ... and i know there are some people out there like, "gosh jenni you're kind of a bitch for writing this all on your blog" but there's something else. one day i asked tammi if she was going to go to anime expo because one of my cousin's friends met her there last year and he kinda dug her ... but she went on and on and on about how grossed out she was and how she had to write this on her blog ... so yeah ... i don't think that it was very fair for her to say she wanted to write how grossed out she was at this boy, whom she barely knows, wanting to get to know her better. i didn't say he wanted to marry her ... he just wanted to know if he'd ever meet her again. i guess in their short conversation he got the gist that she was a decent and even nice person ... but i guess she should have told him that she thought he was too weird for her. ANYWAY ... today in the car the few words that staci forced out were about going to anime expo. i guess they're going now. and then she mentioned that i should tell my cousin's friend. WHAT?? staci was also adding coments on the side about how weird my cousin's friends were. whatever. AH!!!!!!!! AND ... you thought i was done?? there's more ... every monday and wednesday i have history from 12:30-2:00. so ... tammi and staci wait outside my class for me and they jump in my car and i drive them home. here's the thing ... i feel terrible when they ask me for a ride because they invented the puppy dog look and when they dont ask it feels like i'm just expected to take them!! who hired me as a chauffeur?! which takes me back to the point ... THEY NEVER ASK ME OUT!! pam asked me if there was anything they could do to make me happy again. and i said, "if they asked me out. i just wanna hang out with them. one movie and i wouldn't care at all." but whatever ... right now ... i just don't know ... yeah, whatever.

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